Hi! It's been awhile since my last post. So preoccupied about nothing, really. What have happened for the past three weeks? Nothing much.
After four weeks of once a week visit to the TCM having acupuncture sessions and drinking bitter potions and pills here I am just had my period after three weeks of delay. I was really expecting that I'd get my period after 30 days. O well, so much with PCOS. But, I was glad to have it last Sunday. I think what helped was the hot compress I placed in my tummy. It was not really for my tummy. There's a lump/bump on my groin. It's a bit painful and the skin is a little red so I'm worried that it may end up as a boil. After checking the net on how to lessen the bump and redness I took a hot compress and placed it on the affected area. In between I would place it also on my tummy and at the back of my hips. I just thought about it because I read somewhere that progesterone is heat sensitive and it'll help to increase it if you put a hot compress on your abdomen and at the back a week before your expected period. I guess it helped indeed cause not only did I have my period but I have no dysmenorrhea. My day 1 was a breeze. I felt nothing not even the pulling down sensation on my vagina.
On my next cycles I'll make sure to have a hot compress ever day starting on the week before I have my period.
Btw, on Sat, 1st of July, I'll have my HSG at Ruffles Hospital. Though I had it in 2008 my current OBGYNE seemed it necessary to have another one since there are cases that the tubes will be blocked due to endemetriosis and others. So wish me luck!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Friday, June 3, 2011
Iva Keene NFP
This is very promising but I am bit skeptic of this because I think I know already almost the do's and don'ts of fertility. The recommended diet is not even always available and is quite expensive. Has anyone actually purchased this and succeeded in conceiving? I can't seem to find any forum or review about the success of her NFP.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
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Trying TCM
It's been a while since my last post. I don't know. I guess I've just been busy. Or I don't want to be reminded that I'm documenting my TTC journey. Or I am hoping the next time I post here it's going to be positive. But, I'm not so the journey goes on!
I've been going to Dr Koh Lee Hoon of Nam Hua Acupuncture and Medical Hall at Tampines Interchage Central 1. She is very kind and seems to know what she is doing. I saw pictures of babies and even a Thank You card dedicated to her for helping a couple have their own baby. So it made me believe that she can help TTC couples conceive naturally. Yep, I'm convincing myself because when I started this process it was not easy.
The first day of my consultation, that was 2nd of May, I was greeted by a nice lady who gladly allowed me to write my name in the waiting list. As I was number 8 she said that I can come back about 1030am, and it's just quarter to 9. So I looked around the area as it was too early, shops open around 1030am, I just bought myself some siopao for breakfast.
Finally, its my turn. She asked usual things doc asks and TCM asks. She gave me a BBT chart to measure my tempt every morning. After some Q&A portion she asked me to lay in the bed and she started the acupuncture. Several needles were placed in my body. Most were in my lower legs for constipation, liver and stomach. I was kind of surprised that in my stomach she just used three needles below my navel. In my previous acupuncture in the Philippines there were about 5 needles along the ovaries. She also placed a patch that connects to a small gadget that massages my lower back.
Before I left the clinic the lady I met early in that morning have prepared the medicine I have to take for 6 days. All of these cost me SGD60. I need to go back every week so it means I'd be spending around SGD240/month on a 4-week month and SGD300 if it's 5 weeks. O boy, I think my husband's wallet is going to be ripped apart. LOL!
It is now my 4th week and have been swallowing 6-7 tablets and drinking bitter syrup each day. I can't see any improvement based on my BBT chart as my temperature is low, 36.5 C the highest after ovulation. I'm expecting my next period to be around this week or early next week and I'm not having bad PMS i.e. headache, wobbling or weak knee, etc, so I guess Doc Koh's treatment is helping me anyhow.
I'm willing to give this 2-3 months more since I've read that TCM takes about 3 or more months before you could actually get the benefits.
p.s. On June 3 I'd be going to Dr. Sheila Loh of Raffles for first consultation. You bet I'm working double time now. Haha!
p.s.s. I've stopped going to Dr. Goh since Clementi is too far for me.
last p.s. I appreciate hubby for helping me out on this process. He would wake up ahead of me around 8am everyday to shake the mercury based thermometer and suck it in my mouth. Then would take it out as I was still asleep and try to read the measurement even he himself is still very sleepy. =)
I've been going to Dr Koh Lee Hoon of Nam Hua Acupuncture and Medical Hall at Tampines Interchage Central 1. She is very kind and seems to know what she is doing. I saw pictures of babies and even a Thank You card dedicated to her for helping a couple have their own baby. So it made me believe that she can help TTC couples conceive naturally. Yep, I'm convincing myself because when I started this process it was not easy.
The first day of my consultation, that was 2nd of May, I was greeted by a nice lady who gladly allowed me to write my name in the waiting list. As I was number 8 she said that I can come back about 1030am, and it's just quarter to 9. So I looked around the area as it was too early, shops open around 1030am, I just bought myself some siopao for breakfast.
Finally, its my turn. She asked usual things doc asks and TCM asks. She gave me a BBT chart to measure my tempt every morning. After some Q&A portion she asked me to lay in the bed and she started the acupuncture. Several needles were placed in my body. Most were in my lower legs for constipation, liver and stomach. I was kind of surprised that in my stomach she just used three needles below my navel. In my previous acupuncture in the Philippines there were about 5 needles along the ovaries. She also placed a patch that connects to a small gadget that massages my lower back.
Before I left the clinic the lady I met early in that morning have prepared the medicine I have to take for 6 days. All of these cost me SGD60. I need to go back every week so it means I'd be spending around SGD240/month on a 4-week month and SGD300 if it's 5 weeks. O boy, I think my husband's wallet is going to be ripped apart. LOL!
It is now my 4th week and have been swallowing 6-7 tablets and drinking bitter syrup each day. I can't see any improvement based on my BBT chart as my temperature is low, 36.5 C the highest after ovulation. I'm expecting my next period to be around this week or early next week and I'm not having bad PMS i.e. headache, wobbling or weak knee, etc, so I guess Doc Koh's treatment is helping me anyhow.
I'm willing to give this 2-3 months more since I've read that TCM takes about 3 or more months before you could actually get the benefits.
p.s. On June 3 I'd be going to Dr. Sheila Loh of Raffles for first consultation. You bet I'm working double time now. Haha!
p.s.s. I've stopped going to Dr. Goh since Clementi is too far for me.
last p.s. I appreciate hubby for helping me out on this process. He would wake up ahead of me around 8am everyday to shake the mercury based thermometer and suck it in my mouth. Then would take it out as I was still asleep and try to read the measurement even he himself is still very sleepy. =)
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Happy Mother's Day!
These are the days which I dread most (that I can think of for now):
- day 1 of my menses,,
- Facebook announcement that someone is pregnant or has given birth
- baby's christening where I'm either a guest or worse a godmother,
- children's birthday party and,
- yeah, Mother's Day
These are the days when I'm reminded that I'm not a mother... yet. That I don't have a child...yet. That I won't be receiving Happy Mother's Day for me but for my mom. These occasions seem to shout out at me saying, 'Hey, you're infertile and not getting pregnant is the worst failure you could ever get!' Sometimes I would pity myself, then try to compose myself convincing that I'd get pregnant, we haven't just found out yet what's really wrong with me. We'll get there. Maybe this coming cycle or after a TCM or a visit to OB/GYNE. Then, when I see a pregnant woman or a mother carrying her new born, urgh! There goes the self pity again, then the anger of how what seems to be an easy thing for others, is so damn hard for me!
Where is that missing puzzle? What is it that we haven't done yet? What is it that we have done in a wrong way? Am I being punished? Is this my curse for all the wrong that I've done? Moments like these come even at the middle of the night, while working my ass up and mostly when I'm alone. And, yet, there are no answers to these questions. I'm just hoping it will come really soon before I lose my sanity.
- day 1 of my menses,,
- Facebook announcement that someone is pregnant or has given birth
- baby's christening where I'm either a guest or worse a godmother,
- children's birthday party and,
- yeah, Mother's Day
These are the days when I'm reminded that I'm not a mother... yet. That I don't have a child...yet. That I won't be receiving Happy Mother's Day for me but for my mom. These occasions seem to shout out at me saying, 'Hey, you're infertile and not getting pregnant is the worst failure you could ever get!' Sometimes I would pity myself, then try to compose myself convincing that I'd get pregnant, we haven't just found out yet what's really wrong with me. We'll get there. Maybe this coming cycle or after a TCM or a visit to OB/GYNE. Then, when I see a pregnant woman or a mother carrying her new born, urgh! There goes the self pity again, then the anger of how what seems to be an easy thing for others, is so damn hard for me!
Where is that missing puzzle? What is it that we haven't done yet? What is it that we have done in a wrong way? Am I being punished? Is this my curse for all the wrong that I've done? Moments like these come even at the middle of the night, while working my ass up and mostly when I'm alone. And, yet, there are no answers to these questions. I'm just hoping it will come really soon before I lose my sanity.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Everybody Is Getting Pregnant But ME!
40-year old actress, hubby's two friends - one who's been trying for five years and the other for a second child. Why has it always been skipping me. Before I resigned from my old job almost around me got pregnant and the news almost always come when I thought I'm pregnant and then bang! My period came!
It has always been like this. How I wish I could get used to these circumstances, but I can't. How can you tell yourself that it's ok when all you want to do is pity yourself and talk to your ovaries to please for once can't you just work the way you're supposed to? Then comes my obsession again to search for reason for infertility when I've already read them thousands of times. Lurking into forums checking if someone got preggy drinking this or eating that or doing something. TMI already but there's got to be an answer to what I'm going through.
Yeah, no matter how much we push, there's only so much that we can do. We still leave everything to nature, to God that the sticky beans will come. By then, every hurt, every pain and every bitter herbal pill we have to take will all be worth it because when our little one comes everything will be magical.
It has always been like this. How I wish I could get used to these circumstances, but I can't. How can you tell yourself that it's ok when all you want to do is pity yourself and talk to your ovaries to please for once can't you just work the way you're supposed to? Then comes my obsession again to search for reason for infertility when I've already read them thousands of times. Lurking into forums checking if someone got preggy drinking this or eating that or doing something. TMI already but there's got to be an answer to what I'm going through.
Yeah, no matter how much we push, there's only so much that we can do. We still leave everything to nature, to God that the sticky beans will come. By then, every hurt, every pain and every bitter herbal pill we have to take will all be worth it because when our little one comes everything will be magical.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Pope Paull II Beatification
Yesterday, May 1, was a great celebration for all Catholics. It was the beatification of Pope Paul II, the Pope of Our Generation, as they say, and the feast of Jesus The Divine Mercy. He is my favorite pope. He is charismatic, oozing with love and compassion. He even have forgiven and visited his would be assassin in the prison.
Pope Benedict XVI's proclamation of him as 'blessed' coincided with the celebration of The Divine Mercy because he was the defender of the The Divine Mercy apparition to Sr. Faustina. He was the one who declared the feast day of The Divine Mercy. Hubby and I feel lucky and blessed that The Divine Mercy Church here is quite near our place so we celebrated the mass there and to our great surprise the relics of Pope Paul with his statue were displayed at the side of the altar. Everytime I look at them I feel teary eyed. I begged for his intercession that he would also do a miracle for us. To pray for us that the Lord God grant us our greatest desire - our own children.
The vestments were said to be lost for some years already
and was only found a day before JPII's beatification.
After the mass, we venerated the relics and took some pictures. Before we left I said a prayer and said to myself, 'Go on God, heal me. Heal me.' I claim that God healed me through Pope Paul's intercession because that night I finally got my period! Yey!
Blessed Paul, pray for us.
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